My god is a loving god; His love blankets
me,
It both surrounds and is within me,
He knows all my imperfections,
My unworthiness and sinful ways,
And He loves me nonetheless.
All I ever had to do to receive His loving gift,
Was to open wide the door within,
That led to my heart and soul.
As a loving Father, He waited patiently,
He was so close but I did not know.
My skin would have felt His breath,
But my emotions were dead, I could not feel.
Long ago, I closed tight the doors,
To protect myself from pain,
It was a child’s way to survive and cope,
With the terrible traumas of abuse.
But when I closed the door,
I also shut it on God’s love,
And I immobilized my heart.
It’s been a long, lonely road back,
I know now that He was always here,
But I had to walk the long dark paths,
And experience the despair and pain anew,
Slowly, as I journeyed this time,
The door to my heart creaked open.
I didn’t know it or feel it happen,
Until my pastor said some special words,
“You belong; you’ve always belonged.”
As he spoke these words, I felt them,
And understood how true they were.
Since that day I continue my journey,
The dark shadows now mix with dappled sun,
God helped me to rediscover my emotions,
Thus I can laugh and I can cry,
The joy I find balances the pain,
I can feel peace after the storm,
Whether I climb the highest mountain
Or walk through the darkened valley,
I am no longer alone,
God is with me and He loves me,
And with his gift of spiritual healing,
I can now gratefully return his love!
6/7/2000
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